When The Whole Worlds Against You
April 27, 2011 § 1 Comment
When everything in your life is wrong, when you are trying to stand but people keep pushing harder every time you try, when you are to the point that you can’t stand yourself and you wonder what you are doing wrong, when the whole world is against you, you have to believe. Trust that you can do it, make yourself believe that there’s hope, and try harder when they push harder because it all pays off in the end.
Two years ago before my grandma died she said these same words to me. She said that she has had a hard life and she doesn’t want me to think that life is going to be easy because its not, she told me to have hope and believe. I was young when she told me this and I didn’t understand her words. But now right here sitting in this dark classroom I realise that she was right.
After my grandma passed we were all sad. Especially my dad. Dad got mean and things got worse but grandmas words stayed in my head. I used to have dreams that she would come back but they never came true. I dreamt that things would get better if I was good and never bad and I used to think that one day she would come walking in my front door. It never happened and it never will.
I remember when I was little and my grandma told me stories of how life used to be 50 years ago and she would talk about how gas prices were a dollar a gallon and they thought that was expensive. She talked about war and fighting she also talked about how she hopes things will get easier.
She spoke of when she was a nurse in the Vietnam war and that was how she met my grandfather. She said that he had gotten shot in the leg and he was brought to her tent and as soon as she got the alcohol on his leg and the bullet pulled out he got his leg wrapped and he went on the chopper and flew back to the fight. She knew nothing about the man she had helped but she did know that she loved him.
My grandma told me this story a million times and to this day I still believe every word.
I miss my grandma a lot and I hope one day I’ll get to go and see her up in heaven where we can be happy together and live through all eternity. My grandma was a good person who spoke the truth, trusted in god and was very helpful at times. I am happy I can say that I am related to her.